Yesterday someone in my life took his own life. I was devastated by the news…but only worried about what brought him there…not anger because he did it. No one can know the last thought of anyone who dies…by disease or by their own doing. To think otherwise is selfish and self-serving.
I have had thoughts of suicide in my life…many of us have. I don’t condone it and I hope that anyone who does have these thoughts finds a way by whatever means to get to the next moment and see hope as an option.
I have recently been the subject an indictment of my character in a way that essentially renders my life invalid and a lie. What inspired this is beyond my ability to explain or even care. It did however raise questions with me.
If you are or ever have been in a relationship, does [did] your significant other know every detail of your life? The answer is NO. I remember stories my father who lived 91 years told me. I heard many of them many times and something new was added to each version. I relished the stories and admired my father for having lived them and never once thought he was lying because the story was not the same verbatim every time. Any story that is told is told in the moment and if it is exactly the same every time it is rehearsed or memorized…an alibi.
I can honestly say that I have never done anything in my life that required an alibi. I have lived my life and always felt fortunate for the experiences I have enjoyed and openly share them because I have always hoped that my fortune might inspire and encourage others.
If anyone asks you to repeat a story in your life ten times…they will hear ten versions and that is fine. It has to do with the time, circumstance and question.
Have you omitted pieces of your life from friends? The answer is YES. NO ONE ever gets to know everything. That doesn’t make you bad…it makes you human. If you question everything someone tells you it is because you don’t trust them, not because you love them. Your distrust is your issue…not theirs. Not believing someone does not make them a liar.
If you don’t like someone because you don’t believe them it is because they were never a friend and nothing can change that. Your beliefs will never invalidate another human being.
Until you have lived another person's life, you can never know the whole story. I only wish I knew my friend's life better...and last thought...so I could understand better. He will be missed.
I’m just saying.